Just Got Older! It's BetterCurly's Birthday

Happy Birthday to BetterCurly blog!

Yey, another year!!! Now officially a six-year-old page and a warm home to my swirly and random thoughts. I'm really glad that God inspired me and gave me courage to start this blog in 2010 with only one goal in mind: BE BETTER NOW OR NEVER.

This blog is a treasure to me. Writing here lets me discover more about my heart and what's happening to the other side of my walls. As I've said last year: "This blog had opened doors of opportunities, new friends, inspirations and encouragements which I never thought could come in. Little by little, I gained confidence in myself."

So today, I encourage you to set aside your fears and take risks to pursue what you really really love. Sometimes, it's okay to move without waiting for inspirations and perfect timing and just let things happen.

As for me, I just keep on writing, doing artworks, taking photographs and serving the Lord through our ministries. But I usually do a lot of prayers before I go and pursue something. I pray for God's wisdom, courage and strength so for whatever fears, doubts, and testings which might come, I'll be confident that He'll be with me and help me move forward and then soar higher.

God is able to create something from nothing because He is our Almighty Creator and is sovereign.

But whenever I don't have peace in my heart, I pause for some time and reflect on it. I seek God's Word and ask the Lord for confidence. Because as I want my works to be beneficial to me; I hope for someone out there who is getting/feeling better after seeing/reading what I posted online. I feel so glad every time I read someone's message to me saying they got inspired and could relate to me well.

I hope to see more courageous people out there pursuing what is good and helpful to everyone. I remember a line from 2009 CNN Hero of the Year Efren Peñaflorida's speech: “You are the change that you dream and collectively we are the change that this world needs to be.” We can help the society and this world through our passions, hobbies, habits and random interests. As long as we do our part with excellence. So stand, move and fly. Try moving and you then will discover the incredible things waiting for you.

Lately, I’ve been listening to a lot of NEEDTOBREATHE’s great music and here’s Difference Maker and of course The Heart – perfect songs for my blog’s anniversary J

Thank you for reading and following my curly adventures! Until my next post :)
God bless!


The Deal

Fourteen years ago, I received the saving grace that gave me a big opportunity to walk a purpose driven life. It was during an intimate moment with the Lord Almighty in a place of jam-packed crowd of young people seeking changes and God's presence in their life. 

Ate: Sige na, sumama ka na sa (youth) camp na ito.  
Ako: Ayoko. 
Ate: Sumama ka na, at pagkatapos nyan, hinding-hindi na kita pipilitin mag-church kahit kailan. 
Ako: Ok. Deal. 
*Ate - big sister

I didn't go to sleep that night before the event. My heart's still hesitant for I'd be going without someone I know, or at least from our home church. I was not happy to socialize with other people. 

Before the break of dawn, we ate breakfast. I took a bath. I brought a borrowed bag of clothes and a borrowed Bible from my sister plus a pocket money. We traveled to the big church and registered. There I saw the list of things to bring and I had no utensils and own plate.

I was neither excited nor my feet were willing to ride the bus to bring us to the campsite in a nearby province. I thought I left my heart back at home.

I had little chat with my seatmates but I wasn't open for friendship. My mind was into something else - the cravings of my selfish heart. Then we made a stopover for an early lunch and I brought home my used plastic spoon and fork so I could use something for this five-day hell week. Yes, with my grumpy spirit, my mind was bombarded with negative thoughts.

Upon arrival, we were directed to the sanctuary. We started with hi and hellos to fellow campers; followed by home rules to keep in mind. There I found a familiar face, a female church mate, who was also unexcited and bored already. She was snob but since we sometimes talked at church, we tagged along. Everyone was designated to several groups called tribes. Since my church mate, J, and I were the only representatives from our church... they put us into the same tribe: Simon. And then we went to our rooms to place our things for we're to start an activity and meet our tribe mates for the week.

We met our two counselors and co-members. They seemed nice and some of the guys were really funny. Thankfully, a female team member lent me her extra plate.

Challenge #1: we were tasked to design our tribe's flag. I helped conceptualized and was assigned to be the flag bearer. A specific rule for the flag was given: we should not allow anyone from camp organizers to take that away from our team "anytime". It'd represent our soul and spirit so we must guard it with all our might. Deduction of points was enforced for every tribe that would fail to do the challenges and follow the rules.

"Okay, I'd be able to survive this week since I'm competitive and an achiever by nature.", I told myself.

I was a good flag bearer. I assumed I was a genius in hiding it. Some of the bearers suffered a lot protecting their tribe's flag from the "thieves". But I had good sleep for nights until it was taken away from me while celebrating our tribe's victory over some challenges. I was too happy and full of pride, unable to notice that the Speaker Pastor was already taking our flag out of my hands. I thought their team was at halt since it's awarding time.

What does this say about me?
When pride and success get in my head - I'd be lost again. That was totally an eye-opener.

And the most important lesson I learned from this experience:
while we're celebrating triumphs, the Enemy is not at rest, he's still there ready to do his job and devour us. That's why, we must be super cautious and prepared to defend our faith - in season or out of season.

And who would have thought that God was in business of crushing my heart and re-routing the track of my life in that summer camp?

He already prepared in mind this five-day event of laughter, tears, pain, joy, friendship, and revelations. That He would actually talk to me to convict me of my rebellion, self-seeking character, and secret sins. That I was in great need of Him and the gift of salvation but I was too shallow to understand its necessity in my life. For I was a lost sheep for so many years but He found me because He loved me first.

The Great Shepherd was already thinking about me and to every soul in that campsite during the summer of 2002. It was simply beautiful, touching and transforming.

God greatly dealt with me that week. He exposed the real issues of my heart.

Well, is He done with me yet?
No, as I've said before, I'm a work in progress. There are still issues in my heart but most of them are way different than what I had fourteen years ago.

I'm growing, thriving and not forgetting about His amazing love and sacrifice.

Because I sought Him, I found Him.
Then, He showed me how sufficient was His grace for us
and how wide, long, high and deep His love for us all.

I can still picture myself in that sanctuary on a Wednesday night of May. Pouring my heart out and receiving the gift of the Holy Spirit. I was comforted by the Father's love; healed and secured by Jesus' blood and sanctified by the Spirit.

That summer, I fell in love with God and made a powerful U-turn away from the lies of my youth and back to the True Lover of my soul. Of course, I came back to church as well and let Him take over my life since my freedom was paid by Jesus on the cross. Many of my co-campers became active at church and J became friendly with others. I just hope to hear from them again soon. I didn't own a cellphone during that time and sadly, I lost my address book. I pray that their souls are still in good shape and anchored in Jesus.

To this day, I'm still thankful that God used my Ate's authority over me to bring me to that life-changing summer camp. Thank God she didn't give up when I was hard to convince. Since then, we're serving God through His church together.

I pray that you'll also surrender to God's will. And if you already made the decision to live a life in Christ - I pray that you'll finish the race by faith and His grace. You must not give up, no matter how hard it is for Jesus is our strength.

A blessed day!
Love, MM  

Memory Gap

"I'm sorry, you know, may memory gap na ang Lola mo."

This has always been my excuse whenever I failed to remember something and worst -- if it affected a certain person or project somehow.

And sadly, I forget about God's grace and miracles many times too. I become like the Israelites who murmured against His glory and who He is in the wilderness. [Read Numbers 14It's because I put my focus more on my circumstances and my personal issues than what His Word says and what He already did for me. Most importantly, who God is over all creations.

"No matter how bad our past, it’s always easier to default to our old behaviors than keep forging new ones. So many of us struggle with the same temptations. But there is no drive-through breakthrough. We all must go through the wilderness to get to freedom so we are strong enough to defeat the giants who fuel our shame." Christine Caine said in her devotional piece 'Unashamed' at Youversion.

I believe that it's by God's grace why He allowed me to experience painful highlights in my life while my faith was being increased. Once I became grumpy and ugly. I chose to live in the past and my regrets for so long. My bones became dry and my heart became hard. But beyond all these darkness in me - His light is brighter; my hurts over His unfailing love; and my worries over His great purposes.

"What would happen if you stopped asking, “God, WHY am I going through this?” and started asking, “God, WHAT are you preparing me for?”" questioned Steven Furtick, the founder and lead pastor of Elevation Church in US.

I thank the Holy Spirit for He is leading me to walk uprightly and follow God's will. Today, I'm full of hope and love because I'm on the right track - His race track. 14 years ago, I was really lost but found by a loving Father. And since that day, my life had never been the same.

Thankfully, I'm a work in progress. I've learned a lot and still learning more through His beautiful Word. He is my life. I don't know where I'll be without God. Lest I forget that in Him, there's victory and assurance that He is in control -- I'm in good hands no matter what. 

So you too, be encouraged. God is sovereign. Remember that He loves you and He cares about you. It's just there is really no drive-through breakthroughs; that's why we must persevere and trust Him with our all. :D

A blessed day!

Love, MM  

*cute girl photo credit: Anne Price Photography
*road orig photo credit: American Small Business Institute 

POEMATIC 04.14.16 White and Boring

You always wear a clueless smile
And I notice your gray eyes
You’re actually unsightly 
And I still find you boring
I really do

Yet I can’t ignore your being
Oh, a soul as white as cotton

Please make this easier for me
Go chase the end of the rainbow
Run away from me swiftly
Find your own fantasy

Beautiful Women Inside and Out

It’s March and let’s celebrate the National Women’s Month!

Women are special because God made us full of love and compassion that’s why we can easily touch one’s heart. Our beauty can be seen inside and out although the world gives more credit on picture-perfect faces because of visual impression. Yet we cannot deny that impact of a mother’s care for her children, a sister’s comfort and friendship with her siblings, a grandma’s thoughtfulness to her little grandchildren and a wife’s dedication to serve her family.

A woman know how to express her feelings openly and talk about her thoughts. But sadly, some girls know well how to hurt others through harsh words out of their own insecurities.  Thankfully, we can always have an option to choose between life and death. Let’s speak life and give a compliment to each other. I believe that the Lord gives us gentle hearts so we can deliver words that encourage and give hope as well. And I’ve also seen women and also men who enjoy “silent bullying”. Instead of lifting each other up, we make them doubt of their beauty and gifts. I did that too before and repented about it.

We are meant for much greater than these low acts. We are fearfully and wonderfully made by the Lord and so we must live with a noble character. Let’s keep trying to appreciate people and find the good in them. I pray that the Lord will help us widen our understanding to be more forgiving when others try to bring us down.

I found this beautiful GIF image by Libby VanderPloeg  from Christine Caine’s Facebook post: Strong women lift each other up!

Strong women lift each other up --- i love this so much!
Posted by Christine Caine on Thursday, March 10, 2016

Lately, I’ve been reading a lot of articles and posts from these inspiring women of faith: Christine Caine and Lisa Bevere.

Caine has quoted, “Women leaders do not lead exactly like men. Not better. Not worse. But differently.”

While Bevere told in her book, Lioness Arising: “These women are talented and gifted, fearless yet honoring, connected yet self-contained, present yet far reaching, compassionate yet fierce, pure but not naive, strong and gentle, simple yet highly strategic.”

And I found this Pamelroti notebook with a Bible verse: “God is within her, she will not fall; God will help her at break of day” (of Psalm 46:5).

I pray to be a woman after God’s own heart. Beautiful inside and out. I really need to discipline myself with positivism and do everything in love.

I’m done living in a chapter where my corrupted heart was too insecure and I hardly appreciate the loveliness of other women. I used to seek their flaws so I’d feel good about myself… but this was so wrong. This made me really unhappy.

And so I share this blog post today. May pure love radiates in our lives, ladies. Let’s help this world with our amazing gifts and beautiful mind.

Let’s start with simple things with our girls.

Write thoughtful notes. Go on a date! You can also sit down and have good chat over a cup of coffee or hot chocolate. See a movie. Do arts and crafts. Take a vacation!

Go to a museum (Good news! National Museum of the Philippines offered free admission for women this month of March). )

Or dress up together. Help someone improve her looks. Pick up the right clothes according to shapes and sizes. Anyway, I stumbled upon the plus size section at ZALORA where I found good pieces that are really form-flattering.

Have a great weekend amazing women and men!
God bless!

*photo credits:
wonderwoman via http://bondfireradio.com/, Christine Caine's women leaders from Pinterest.com and Psalm 46:5 via papemelroti.com

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